Many years ago, on a summer's evening, I walked past a home in Brisbane (Australia) and heard adult laughter emanating from someone's back verandah, where a group of friends gathered. I paused and viewed their silhouettes through the gap between the houses. They were eating dinner and drinking wine and enjoying their mutually convivial company. I was already an adult myself -- I was married, and had a child -- but my life was so different from theirs. I was so tempted to just walk onto their property and ask to join them; I knew it would be awkward but I thought there was a 50/50 chance they might welcome me. But I had to go ... I stood for another five minutes as an outsider in the darkness, captivated by their relaxed, civilized world, and I said to myself, "THAT .. THAT is the life I want."
Well guess what? Now I have that life.