September 29

The folks at Inspire Me Thursday offered a Daily Photo Project for this week's challenge. Here's my contribution.

September 28

EDM Challenge #18: Draw the view from your window. In another day or two, the view will be of a plum and apricot tree, and a bird bath. I can't wait.

September 27

In the foyer at Hennegan they have three large, framed displays of old wood type. I love that stuff. Coincidentally, when I was at the last printer's in Dallas, my rep took me down into the now-abandoned letterpress department and let me pick out a few pieces of wood type from the ancient type trays. Here's what I got ... lucky me :-)

September 26

The Cincinnatian Hotel, built in 1882. All was going fine till I got to the arch, when I realised that the picture was too skinny for its height. Oh well. EDM Challenge #29: Draw something architectural.

September 25

EDM Challenge #85 ... kinda ... not a store, but a restaurant across the road from my hotel in Dallas. I ate Indian food there last night, and it was delicious.

Tomorrow morning I leave for Cincinnati. Oh how I miss my family and my bed.

September 24

Today's free time -- the last I'll have for a few days -- was spent at the rather disappointing Dallas Museum of Art. There wasn't a lot that moved me there. Extensive exhibition space is currently devoted to a Richard Tuttle retrospective. I'm sorry, but I just don't understand why this guy is considered an important artist. When I see a big exhibition like his, I wonder anew how one comes to be taken so seriously when one's art is so ... insubstantial. Ah well, one of Life's Big Mysteries.

I had a raging headache and thirst (which no doubt did not improve my generosity of mind) but the museum café was already closed, and the surrounding downtown area was of course dead on a Sunday afternoon at 5, so the staff suggested I catch the McKinney Ave Trolley uptown. A pleasant though noisy ride ensued. Finally, my thirst slaked and some food in my tummy, I got my bearings and walked the mile or so back to my hotel.

September 23

Spent a few hours at the very lovely Dallas Arboretum this afternoon, where I was entranced by shapes, and kids.

September 22

My print rep here, Steve, has a 13 year old son whose band is playing their first gig tomorrow night. Steve asked me to produce a logo for the band, so he could surprise them with t-shirts. He told me not to spend more than 30 minutes on it ... so this is what they got. What do you think? Simple, graphic, to-the-point ... and it only took me 13 minutes, half of which was spent selecting a font.

September 21

We had a few hours to kill this afternoon, so drove out to Fort Worth to the historic Stockyards. The rental car has a GPS system in it, which directed us back to the freeway via minor roads, where we spotted this abandoned building in a artistic state of decay.

September 20

Dallas, forgive me for all the mean things I said about you. I said you'd be full of big-haired women with caked-on makeup. I thought you'd be just as polluted as Los Angeles, but hotter and stickier. And worst of all, I thought there'd be nowhere for me to eat. No nice little vegetarian restaurants serving lentil burgers. Just rib joints on every corner, serving huge platters of meat, groaning with cholesterol.

Boy, was I wrong.

My hotel, the Melrose, seems to be in the gay part of town. Cool designer boutiques. Coffee shops with exclusively male clientiele. Condom stores. I feel perfectly safe walking the streets at night. There are THREE vegetarian restaurants within two blocks of here. And most of the rest of the neighbourhood eateries are "vegetarian-friendly", according to the concierge. I haven't tried any of them yet, though, because tonight I went for a walk and discovered ... drum roll ... EATZI'S. It's a bit like Whole Foods without the groceries, but much better. There were so many choices that I was dazzled, and ended up walking out with just a huge salad for five bucks. Tomorrow night I'll also get some teriyaki salmon, maybe.

Dallas, forgive me. I love you. I really, really do.

September 19

My bags are packed, I'm ready to go. I'm off to Texas and Ohio tomorrow for more press checks. Already I'm so lonesome I could cry.

September 18

September 17

She left on the five thirty train...
(a poem for Grandma)

Well the winds of change are blowing,
To help her to cross on.
I knew that she was going.
Now I know that she is gone.
I wished I'd said I love you,
Now I know, I can't.
Because the ship has left the harbour.
And the birds have left the park.

While she's flying up above us
While she's sailing out to sea...
I'm comforted, a piece of her
Still lives inside of me.

Written by Tui Cook 12/9/06

September 16

September 15

I just noticed that these bread rolls look a bit like boobs. How apropos.

September 14

I am really tired.

September 13

I am home. My head and heart are still very full of the emotions of the past two weeks. I'm feeling quiet and fragile and reflective. All of which is fine.

I still haven't really cried, so I know that day is coming, and will no doubt slam me unexpectedly at an inopportune time. Which is also fine.

I found it interesting that I had no desire to chronicle the process of Mum's death, or of my time with my family in Australia. It was too raw, too private, for even my own journal. The memories will stay or go, as they will.

When I am dead, my dearest,
Sing no sad songs for me;
Plant thou no roses at my head,
Nor shady cypress tree:
Be the green grass above me
With showers and dewdrops wet;
And if thou wilt, remember,
And if thou wilt, forget.

I shall not see the shadows,
I shall not feel the rain;
I shall not hear the nightingale
Sing on, as if in pain:
And dreaming through the twilight
That doth not rise nor set,
Haply I may remember,
And haply may forget.
(Christina Rossetti -- Song)

Daily art updates to resume tomorrow. I hope.

September 10

Helen Marie Clark
June 13 1932 — 10 September 2006
Rest in peace, Mama.

Today was one of the loveliest I've had in a long time. My siblings, nieces and I watched dawn strike the Brindabella Mountains from the window of Mum's hospital room, filled with a sense of happiness at her release. We ended the day sharing vegetarian tagine and couscous and champagne and precious memories of this woman who loved us so unreservedly through every day of our lives. I am so incredibly lucky to have had this past ten days -- and forty-six years -- with her. She taught me how to love.

An added bonus was meeting Alison today. Together with Rhea we walked the loop to Hermione's bench, on which we are sitting here. I learned a little of the life and heart of this gracious, wise and peaceful artist. Thank you for sharing, Alison. Let's do some more soon.

How things can change ...

... in an instant. I am catching the next flight to Australia. Hang in there, Mum.

August 29

Drawn blind contour while creeping (very slowly!) on the freeway.

August 28

August 27

I didn't actually intend to spend the entire weekend sewing. But a week or so ago, inspired by Alicia, I'd offered to make Lauren a back-to-school dress, and she reminded me about it on Saturday morning. So off we went to the fabric store. Perusal of the pattern books did not locate any dress patterns she liked, but she was very taken with this "That's So Raven" suit. Even though it's way dressier -- and way more work -- than I had in mind, I ended up agreeing, especially when she was easily steered to a navy pinwale corduroy with pink polka dots.

Of course, nothing was simple. The smallest size pattern was too big for her, so there was much photocopying, reducing, and trial and error before we ended up with these three garments. The top is actually too small now -- she can barely get it on. I'm thinking a pink t-shirt might be just the ticket for the first day of school. After two solid days of working on this, I'm not sure I have the energy to make her a new top.

But hey, it looks good, doesn't it? Now, if I could just stop her growing for a year so she can get some wear out of it...

August 26

There's something really wrong with this guy. Can you see what it is?

August 25

I ache when I think of her.

August 24

I'm having a lovely evening alone in my studio. I don't know why I created such a sad girl -- probably because I don't know how to draw happy faces that don't look frozen or clownish.

This recent series has been created on covers torn from hard-cover books. This one -- some kind of Russian novel -- had a corrugated surface which has lent its texture to the finished item. I like it.

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August 18

I'm posting this in honour of Sparky's Illustrated Poem Marathon. It's a tiny concertina book in a mini Altoid tin. The poem is by W.S. Merwin, a poet I'd never heard of until I read a few of his lines on a "Poetry in Motion" poster in a New York subway train. I was so struck by them, that as soon as I got off the train I found a bookstore and bought one of his poetry collections. Which just goes to show that do-gooders' attempts to shove culture down our throats actually work, in some instances.

Anyway, this poem is part of a longer piece called "Kore".

I have watched your smile in your sleep
and I know it is the boat
in which my sun rides under the earth
all night on the wave of your breath
no wonder the days grow short
and waking without you
is the beginning of winter

August 17

I called Mum's ward, and got a man with a strong accent who said, I thought, "Your mother is sleeping now." When I got him to repeat it, he said, "My name is Sleeper (?) and I'm Helen's nurse." Turns out Mum was at the gym, which makes her sound much betterer than she really is.

I feel like a crumpled doily. Screwed up. Not doing my job of protecting delicate surfaces and looking pretty. And holey, definitely holey. Not sure how far I can take this analogy. I should probably stop now, and go to bed, which is where I want to be.

August 16

Rhea sent me a bunch of photos she thought I might like to use in my art. I've been having a great time playing with them. Here's one result (some of them I'm saving for gifts, so I can't post them yet).

August 15

August 14

More cards. I'm liking this series a lot.

August 13

Lauren and I took the train down to Little Tokyo for the Tofu Festival. Here are some of our fellow Red Line travellers, drawn semi-blind-contour-with-train-jiggles.

Lauren's good company on outings like these. She loves taking public transport, she doesn't complain about walking in the heat, she's interested in different cultures, she doesn't nag me too badly to buy her stuff, and in general, she regards the day as an adventure. She is appreciative of the new experience and thanks me warmly at the end of it. What's not to love?

Oh, and she happens to love tofu. Can't ask for more than that. Right?

August 12

I showed Lauren how to make a colour wheel using cheap acrylic paints, and then we played with the resulting colours. She designed shoes, I designed clothing. A nice way to spend an hour with an 8 yr old.

August 11

My darling sister Annette has been at the hospital all day every day this week. She tells me that the hardest part is that Mum cannot communicate effectively. Everyone's listening, but Mum can't say what she wants to say. Yesterday Annette figured out, with a flash of inspiration, that Mum was asking for stronger pain killers for her arthritis. That's what her repetition of "Auntie, uncle, cousin" was all about. Can you imagine how horrible that must be, to be trapped inside a body that cannot convey your thoughts and words? Especially if you are really hurting?

Alison, bless her heart, delivered home grown daffodils to Mum this morning and reports: "She was sitting in a chair and seemed cheerful. She recognized you in the photo but her language was confused - not sure about her thoughts. I asked if Annette would be coming today - she recognized the name but couldn't give a sensible answer. Anyway I stroked her hand and told her how much you wished to be with her right now."

August 10

It may not be pretty, but it's today's creative effort.

I woke up still feeling bleah. I didn't have to go to work today, which left me at a loose end. Uninspired, unmotivated, I tried going back to bed after Josh left but even that was unproductive.

Then the kindness of two readers of this blog really lifted my spirits. Alison, who lives in the same city as my mother, offered to pick flowers from her father's garden and hand-deliver them to Mum in hospital. And Agnes from Canada sent me a long, comforting, informative email about her experiences with family members who have suffered strokes. Suddenly I lost my bleahs, and was ready to work.

A few days ago I bought Saving Dinner's first Mega Menu-Mailer, and this afternoon I shopped for, and prepared, 22 meals. Here they all are in my freezer. They aren't cooked, just prepped. The web site says it takes about 2 hours to prep these meals, but it took me over four and a half, and my legs are TIRED from all that standing.

But it's a good tired. Better than the bleah tired that had been weighing me down for the last two days. Thank you, my friends, for reaching out to me in kindness. I will pay it forward.

August 9

I am still really down about my mum. I spoke to her on the phone last night -- my sister held the phone to her ear. I said, "Hello Mum!" and she replied "Good-bye dear".

August 8

I got up this morning to an email from Australia saying that Mum has had a major stroke and is in hospital. I spoke with sister, who gave me the story to date. At first I was calm and resigned; I know that Mum is old and frail and will die soon. Josh called me after he left the house to check that I was feeling OK, and I said yes, of course ... but now it's hitting me. I want to see my mother while she's ALIVE! I don't want her to be stretched out in a coffin the next time I see her. I haven't said good-bye!

Someone once told me that when you marry someone from another country, it gets really tough when your parents get old and ill. I'm feeling that now. I don't want to be so far away from Mum and Dad. I envy Alison who is spending time every day with her aged mother.

I am sad.

August 7

Dusting the house was one of my Saturday morning chores when growing up. The task was accomplished with a rag sprayed with "Mr Sheen". Now I use a lovely feather duster purchased here, and the job takes way less time.

August 6

I call it a quickunpick, because that's what my mum called it. Was/is that a brand name? Here in America it's known as a seam ripper, I believe.

August 5

August 4

It's Blind Contour First Friday again, and this time the theme is "COOL". Check out other, cooler, contributions at Inkfinger.

August 3

I spent most of the day at the Young American Bindery in Compton, waiting to approve the perfect binding on my current print job. No more press checks for a while after this, until mid September when I have four in a row.

August 2

I've been thinking about how we grow our children with love. It's not just that our love for them gives them the self-confidence to BE to their full potential. It's that, by our example, they learn how to be loving, and hopefully will grow up to be awesome lovers themselves.

I was very loved by my parents ... I'm so grateful for that.

August 1

I’ve spent the last few days on press at Burdge, established in 1923. In their conference room they have a large old leather-bound (with Nigerian goatskin) book produced by the Stevens-Nelson Paper Corporation of New York, circa 1954, to showcase some of the world’s best hand made papers.

The introduction says, in part:

“This is a catalogue of the finest printing and art papers in the world. They are made by hand, or by hand in conjunction with the mould machine, in a tradition that is centuries old—not because hand work is quaint or romantic, but simply because man has not been able to devise any other means of manufacture that will produce such superlative qualities. No mass-produced papers have the true look and feel of excellence, the strength in both directions, and the genuine laid formation that is an integral part of the sheet rather than a pattern pressed into one side by artificial means.

The richness of textures, patterns and tones, and the total impression of superb quality created by these papers, are achieved by hand labor. These sheets are made slowly, with great skill and care. Because slow, small-scaled production is rare in the United States, these papers have to be imported from mills in Western Europe and Japan where manual skills have been developed over the centuries by long, careful apprenticeships. The Italian mill represented here was founded in 1268 and is probably the oldest in western civilization. One of the French mills was founded in 1492, and one of the English mills has made currency paper for more countries than any other mill in the world …”

Unfortunately the only mill names I recognise are Fabriano and Arches. According to the price list in the back of the book, a ream of Fabriano lightweight cover, 26” x 40”, cost $60. And of course quantity discounts and prices for special makings were available on request.

The more than 100 different papers in the book are printed with wonderful graphics and illustrations, via multiple processes: letterpress, offset, blind-stamped, engraving, gravure, stone-lithography, and foil stamping. It’s a treasure!

I copied (kinda) one page that particularly appealed to me. The original was designed by Walter Howe, with illustration by Joseph Low, and was printed letterpress at The Lakeside Press, R.R. Donnelly & Sons Company, Chicago, Illinois, on handmade HOSHO. Yum.